Weekend adventures
Aug. 21st, 2017 04:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mafiefThis weekend I was at my sister-in-law’s house celebrating my parent’s fortieth wedding anniversary. Congrats to them and we wish them many more. My two were a little confused and sung them happy birthday because we were celebrating with cake. My parents had a blast playing with their grandkids and seeing us.
My sister-in-law does a much better job at decorating than I do (I completely fail at this) and I had been to my sister-in-law’s house many, many times before but never really paid attention to items on display. Tucked into the corner of her dining room was the plaque below. Being my awkward self, I asked to take a picture of it with the books she had in her sewing room. She told me that she visited London and the Sherlock Holmes’ museum during her high school trip. I didn’t know that about her before. She then asked me why I wanted a picture of it. Cue me trying to explain to someone that I am writing fanfiction. Now there are two people that I know personally that are aware I am writing. In any case, I took the picture to potentially use it as an icon. I still need to upload and use my watson_woe icon from this round.
Also took the kids to a park and found that someone had littered googly eyes. Being a good citizen, I cleaned them up. Since googly eyes are just about my level of humor some days, I proceeded to take pictures of googly eyes on things.
My sister-in-law does a much better job at decorating than I do (I completely fail at this) and I had been to my sister-in-law’s house many, many times before but never really paid attention to items on display. Tucked into the corner of her dining room was the plaque below. Being my awkward self, I asked to take a picture of it with the books she had in her sewing room. She told me that she visited London and the Sherlock Holmes’ museum during her high school trip. I didn’t know that about her before. She then asked me why I wanted a picture of it. Cue me trying to explain to someone that I am writing fanfiction. Now there are two people that I know personally that are aware I am writing. In any case, I took the picture to potentially use it as an icon. I still need to upload and use my watson_woe icon from this round.
Also took the kids to a park and found that someone had littered googly eyes. Being a good citizen, I cleaned them up. Since googly eyes are just about my level of humor some days, I proceeded to take pictures of googly eyes on things.
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Date: 2017-09-23 04:04 am (UTC)My mom and dad are an extremely pragmatic people. Even something fun, like the skiing they do, must have a purpose. I hate not telling her because I really don’t like keeping anything from her and this is becoming a bigger part of my life than I thought it would. So, I need to think of why I’m continuing to participate in a fandom by writing. Right now I’m planning on telling her (someday) and hopefully the timing will work out and I won’t be a chicken over it. Look! Progress.
OK, why this has taken me a while to respond... After reading this, I cried. Read it again and cried again. I needed to respond when I could emotionally go there. You are meeting me at a unique time in my life; it is the first time I don’t have clear direction or purpose and I’m recovering from academia. So, I know I’m in the midst of a lot of scary, unwanted, and frightening changes while I’m trying to figure out who I am and what I want from life. So, you touched on a sensitive spot for me. Not a bad thing, just hot button stuff I’m currently working through.
I love the creative process that produces something in the end. That was something I did with science and I’m having fun doing it with writing. One of the reasons why I started creative writing was mostly self-induced therapy. Writing with my advisor was traumatizing and I was finding a way to maybe like writing even a little bit. Writing with the purpose of writing original fiction has never been a goal of mine. I’m fascinated by people who want to go in that direction and there are certainly lots of talented people in this community.
“It's made me a different kind of reader.”
I’m noticing that this happening to me now. Now, granted, I’ve been doing creative writing since May so I’m at the beginning of this process BUT I read differently now. I’m finding that I want to read more to figure out what techniques people are using and why something is done that way. Our exchange over your Living Conditions work is an example of this. I’m also reading more poetry than I’ve ever read before. Most of it still confuses me but I’m starting to understand the purpose of it more.
“communication that it lights up for me with a ready-made community that makes me feel connected in a way I rarely am by ordinary people”
Also starting to notice that as well. If I’m with academics, we talk about academic things or dull weather. With non-academics, I usually intimidate them as soon as they find out my degree and then any sort of communication breaks down. But in this community, we can write and work through difficult emotions, sticky situations, or even silly things in the context of those two idiots.
So, I wish us both luck on this journey of self-discovery.